Firstly, I want to start this with my deepest condolences to everyone that has lost someone close to them this past week. It seems as though there has been a series of unfortunate tragedies across the globe. My prayers go out to the lives lost in the Orlando Shootings at Pulse Nightclub, The Voice USA former contestant; Christina Grimmie and 2 year old; Lane Graves alligator incident at the Walt Disney World Resort. Along with this, the terrorist attack against French police commander and his wife in Paris, and lastly, the most recent with UK Labour politician Jo Cox.
It’s been horrific commuting to work on the tube and reading a new killing in The Metro newspaper every single day, I was on the verge of tears whilst sitting on the Piccadilly line for those 10 minutes. People die all the time and it’s not always in the media, but when it does happen so unexpectedly, it’s important to take time to reflect on your own personal life, because you never know – you could be here one day, and gone the next. Just like that.
With everyone wrapped up in the UEFA Euro 2016 and EU referendum; it’s easy to dismiss how much violence is actually going on out there, it’s pretty scary when you realise how dangerous this world is, yet nevertheless I still believe you shouldn’t live in fear.
Having said this, it feels almost wrong to say that I’m happy (with my life I mean, not the above of course). I woke up this morning and had butterflies in my stomach, not wanting to eat (the same sensation you get when you really like a guy) and if you know me – I’m that slim girl with a fat soul, I ALWAYS WANT TO EAT lol.
It was like a moment of excitement and slight nervousness because I’m overwhelmed with how many opportunities are present to me right now. I completely forgot how much I loved writing whilst in the midst of being so damn busy and working 7 days a week. I barely have time to chill, although as this is my only first day off. I’m making it priority to reflect, and share it with you all.
“This is crazy, I’m on the right track, I’m finally found. You need some soul-searching, the time is now” Nas – One Mic.
I’m not the most eloquent speaker, in fact I’m just a common north London chick and honestly I dig that. I’m cool with not being your perfect stereotypical woman. When I hear tracks like Ray BLK ft. Stormzy – My Hood and how authentic it is, I just feel so incredibly blessed to be that average British person. We all have to work hard to get where we want to be especially coming from not necessarily privileged backgrounds, but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t appreciate what we already have. Home is where the heart is.
P.S I must say overall our music scene at the moment is BANGING. If you’re a reader from abroad, I urge you to invest some time in discovering it (I should probably post a UK Only playlist on here soon and pay homage). Remix She Blogs Hip-Hop lol.
It’s exactly half way through the year, 6 months in and I’ve already accomplished so much and have continuous ideas on how I want to progress. So apart from blogging, I’ve trained in radio presenting, currently marketing in the events industry, bartending, training in photography, will soon be DJ’ing and will also be launching my own project called KJ & AJ with a close friend – I won’t give too much away about that yet.
Whether you believe in horoscopes or not, this was mine today and it is so on point, I’m choosing to.
“Some big element in your life is transitioning Taurus. This could mean big change, and you are not someone who loves change. If you don’t evolve with this transition though, you won’t be able to reap the benefits that come with it. While this change may make you feel frightened, exposed, and uncertain of where you are going, it will eventually bring a sense of closure and a feeling of newfound hope. Be brave, and be open to the many possibilities that are opening up for you.”
It’s amazing how much can change in short amount of time only by altering your mind frame, finding inner-peace and positivity being key. I wouldn’t say I’ve reached my goals, aspirations or dreams but as of now I’m embarking on the journey towards it and for that reason, I’m happy.
I really do believe everything happens for a reason and in within certain timing so be patient, however at same time.. make moves for those of you not born with a silver spoon.